Failure to Communicate

Last Tuesday, the collar around my neck was removed. I am no longer a collared boy. The specifics of what happen are not important but the end result is. It is a failure of a BDSM relationship.

I cannot lie. As the submissive in the relationship, I am devastated. I have to pick up the pieces and recreate my life without the Dominant. My emotions are running extremely high. I am extremely lucky. I have some great friends and family that have helped me deal with this failure.

This brings me to stand up on my soapbox. Any submissive that is contemplating a live-in relationship with a Dominant needs to negotiate a Boy Protection Account. This account should be contributed to by the Dominant and/or submissive every month. The account would have funds to take care of the submissive in the event of an un-collaring or a death of the Dominant. The truth of my situation is that I left with three suitcases and no money. Friends loaned me money to keep me off the streets. I deeply appreciate it but there has to be a better way.

A major concern in my failed relationship was communication. When we did talk we were not saying things so the other person could understand what we meant. I unfortunately fell into the trap of thinking that the Dominant should know what my needs were in the relationship. By the time I did express these needs the dominant was not listening. I accept that as my failure.

I will have a tremendous void left in my life from the loss of this relationship. I know that I loved this man with my whole heart and soul. I will heal, but will never forget.